joanne

2007-11-14T21:28:00.002+08:00

MOVED!

2007-10-14T00:57:00.000+08:00

I am so bloated now, from all that stingray and chips and nutella cake at fish&co. Whichhhh was yummy but kind of laborious to eat. Anyway, the point is we went there to celebrate SUBINGBINGBING!!!'s birthday:) Hee and so we got sneak preview of the taste of Post A's retail therapy, and I really marvel at why we girls like shopping sooo much. And anyway, we were a step late in deterring Melly from getting her 300 dollars BACKUP(!?!) prom dress. WTH it's only a backup you know!

Anyway, it's back to studying again. Yesterday's wasted but today's a brand new day:) Andddd I am going to see Xue and Em at church later:) These 2 decided to send me identical msgs at the same time on a late Friday night for our Sun 8.30am service date, which was coincidentally when I was all drained out and their cute msg perked me up:)

Right right right right! People lets study hard! I already got my backup routes if I fail A's :/ Haha see the positivity of it all.

2007-10-09T18:54:00.000+08:00

Good grief! School is ending and A's is looming:( It's like zoom zoom! and two years is gone. And then we encounter the same old feeling again, the sense of loss when something comes to end. LIke when we left Crescent, when my grandma passed away and when season ended. That feeling is so !@#^#&*^*% that it becomes cliche. Like if I say I am going to miss my friends, my team and even just familiar faces we see in sch everyday, everyone would go 'AS USUAL!' But that's how we rightfully should feel. Amazingly, this time, the whole sensation is being downplayed alot, probably because we mature and the notion of parting have changed. Everyone will still be around so it's just a matter of KIT!:)

BUt sch havent end and I am already missing you,teammates. Hello my dear teammates, do you all miss me too? It's like I see these people so often in the past and now everyone is glued to their books, including me so not much interaction:( I miss how we concoct milk with a small probability of grass bits in it for each other, how I get ptmfs everyday, how we never grow tired of asking ' what's the programme for today':) And then there was this time when we start asking each other what is DU LAN, shouting across the shed somemore. And all that mind games we played and the fun we had during national schools (right samme!) and Magic School Bus! and going to J8 for Subway after every trng! I even miss the rocky and awkward path we have to take when we carried our darling K4 which is so darn long to the pontoon. Nostalgia!

Okiedos!
You can't stop the beat!

2007-10-03T00:38:00.000+08:00

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I am so tired. Plus highly irritable:( I need laughter therapy! It takes so much more effort to laugh nowadays and so I am looking forward to Sunday. Cos Sheryl always makes me laugh real hard during tuiton, without fail. No, actually we amuse ourselves, then try to control our laughter cos Mr Tan is teaching but Sheryl can't keep quiet for nuts and starts on her' I am trying very hard not to laugh' sounds which then induces my uncontrollable laughing, resulting in both of us being blacklisted by Mr Tan : \

OKAY SMILE! :)

I need new motivation but I have no more hair left to cut (and I wished I had never step into the salon!)

Oh yes and in the midst of becoming organic and ionic queens, we managed to celebrate Lydia's birthday but our surprise backfired which sent all of us into a state of frenzy! And in the end, we all got surprised instead. And we witnessed a marriage proposal! Haha so swweeeet, except for the fact that it was in Swensens Holland V(?!) We were this close to chorusing a huge CONGRATS but we figured that the moment was over. Oh wells.

Meanwhile, study hard!:)

2007-09-13T22:20:00.000+08:00

WHEEEE. I am beginning to love the lingering taste of black coffee. But too much caffeine increases anxiety.BY ALOT!!! NOT GOOD AT ALL, ESP WHEN THERE IS GOING TO BE TRAMARAMA TMR!

2007-09-10T13:32:00.000+08:00

I ALMOST DIED YESTEDAY! SRSLY! Thats why I am not in school today:( I had the most PAINNNNNFFUUULL CRAMPS in my whole entire life, right in the middle of the night. I swear I would have done anything to ease the pain. Even the painkillers didnt help this time and my parents rushed me to the docs to get a jab. And with the help of sleeping pills, I slept till noon and I am soooo much better now:)

I cannot imagine how terrribllleee it would feel if this is the pain women will have to go through when they give birth. Turning pale, breaking out in cold sweat, heart palpitations and breathing difficulties, ohhh man, its so crazy. For this, I salute all moms!

2007-08-29T21:39:00.000+08:00

Had some quality time with my mum today:) We shopped after she did her hair and the funny thing was she look exactly the same before and after. Town was pretty quiet so we could shop better:)

We finished prelims yesterday! So we went out to play :) with these lovelies I cannot do without. YAY I LOVE MY CLASSMATES!:) We were high high high haha

YESTERDAY NIGHT! hee I got from Ping's collage:)

These are the friends who make sure you reached home safely

Paddle Paddle Paddle I want to paddle!

2007-08-26T00:20:00.001+08:00

A guilty girl now cos nothing

productive the past 2 days and

there are still 2 more miserable

papers to go :(

2007-08-24T00:09:00.000+08:00

It's been long!

Everyone should watch Hairspray at least once! This Broadway musical turned into movie is so worth seeing but I have a feeling guys will beg to differ. The songs and dance routines are amazing(: I was thoroughly entertained for that 2 hours. But of course, it's more than just singing and dancing (I shan't be a spoiler, go watch it for yourselves!) Haha the songs are like stuck in my head ever since. I want to watch it all over again!:)

And, Prelims are finally going to be over. Just 2 more easy peasy, I hope, paper 1s and we're done for now at least.

It's slightly past 12 and so it's Jess and Christabel's birthday today! I was a very nice girl, waiting patiently for 12 am to come so I can be the first one to send them birthday smses and Friendster msgs. HAHA KIASU! ANW, HAPPY BIRTHDAY LOVELIES! Another year older already!:)

2007-08-08T18:10:00.000+08:00

How Econs how?

Mdm was taken aback when she heard that I got A for promos last year. Her jaw dropped instantly, I saw it :( Sigh, GGXXX.

And I have discovered another ideal place to study other than NUS, haha at the tables by the poolside:) It's so productive, cos there is barely anyone in the morning.

ZOMG! Zac Efron is on the cover

of Rolling Stone latest issue!

2007-08-06T16:42:00.000+08:00

ZOMG! I just had to cut it short.

Cranky girls get yellow cranky and corn-ey toenails.

2007-07-28T14:09:00.000+08:00

Haha Shaun made it for us :) So funny! Oh man, I really miss those times.

I don't care, plants have brains!

2007-07-25T00:47:00.000+08:00

I hope I can wake up in time for sch later.

Someone asked me ' Why do you have a goggle tan? You wear shades when you row?'

!!!

Why do I look like I have a goggle tan?! X(

The best is yet to be, the worst has yet to come.
Maybe giving your best is never enough :(

don't look back in anger

2007-07-22T21:10:00.000+08:00

Just this afternoon, I needed to scream, to bite someone, to run like crazy and purposely fall down, to abuse someone ( I'm sorry I did!) just to unleash that bit of anger and frustation in me, but not anymore. I went home after NCC and took a long nap before tuition, which I was an hour late for, cos I forgot he changed the time (hee!) , still alittle emo but after dinner and teevee, it's like ' Heck la, I 've got what I want already:)'

I admit, we went to race with no expectations today, so that's nothing to be :/ about. For the past one week, we stocked up on fried food, didn't have the impression that we are going to race till Thurs night, didnt visualise, DIDNT PADDLE FOR A WEEK, didnt prepare for anything at all. I didnt even know who our all competitors were until at the start line and doodoo Nina didnt even know we were rowing for SSSC. Ha it was so relaxed compared to National Schools, no expectations at all. But when the air horn went off and we started pulling away and ahead of everybody, that tiny hinge of nervousness in me died down and woots! I was getting all excited. In me, I was like' Yay, we can get into straight Finals!' And there comes a tilt which I thought we could fought, and the next thing I know, we were all in the water. Oh my, and we dont even know how did it happened! We havent capsized for ages la! Oh man, it was damm painful at first when reality sank in. But I'm over it already I guess. In the car my dad told me that in all these failures comes along powerful lessons that we can learn from. It 's very true and I know this sucky race did not take away anything from me, other that the fact it kind of marred my memories of Macr, but by a tiny bit only haha:)

I met Jasmine when she was going for her next K4 race and she said she didnt know how to comfort me, haha she was like ' Nvm la, memories!' Ya at least today I've created another day to remember, especially being able to feel the water again after one long week, to sit in my seat and paddle with my partners again, to do our favourite 20 100 and feel so happy when we can pull solid water though we were a teeny shaky today( haha cheap thrills) and most imptly, we got to go to Macr today:)

Anw, I am very proud of myself. My Ipod is very organised now:) And I 've renamed it Lollipop:) Haha actually it's not even mine. I shall get a PSP after A's:) And I am psycho-ing Jas Qiu to get one too!

2007-07-21T22:55:00.000+08:00

Yay! My dad is back from London, with loads of toffee!:)

Wei showed me the lyrics of ' You are my sunshine' the other day. It's such a sad song, masked by an arguably cheery tune. SO EMO! Haha I never knew it was an emo song to start with. I bet you didnt either! And the song has been stuck in my head since then.

You Are My Sunshine

The other night dear, as I lay sleeping,

I dreamed I held you in my arms,

but when I woke dear,

I was mistaken,and I hung my head and cried.

You are my sunshine, my only sunshine

you make me happy when skies are gray

you'll never know dear, how much I love you,

please don't take my sunshine away.

I'll always love you and make you happy

if you will only say the same

but if you leave me to love another

you'll regret it all some day

You are my sunshine, my only sunshine

you make me happy, when skies are gray,

you'll never know dear, how much I love you,

please don't take my sunshine away.

You told me once dear you really loved me

that no one else could come between

but now you've left me and love another

you have shattered all my dreams.

You are my sunshine, my only sunshine

you make me happy, when skies are gray,

you'll never know dear, how much I love you,

please don't take my sunshine away.

Oh man, this is such a nuisance. It's such a chore trying to sync the music in my com with my Ipod. My mini really died, on me, for good and so I have to use the one lying idle at home. And 4GB is reduced to 2 so it's damm irritating to have to delete songs one by one! It's taking forever!

Anw, time to sleep! Got race tmr!:)

2007-07-18T21:21:00.000+08:00

Today was :-)

We went to the Track finals at CCK stadium to support Huiping! Nice race:) Then like for after ages, we sat down and had a nice long chat at Pizza Hut (except Hp wasnt there) Haha maybe it seems like ages only to me since I always pangseh them and their (maybe) weekly outings. Wheee, I had a whooshsoosh day!:)

And I am turning into a fried food junkie ever since the diet ban is lifted and slums are forever! SO TERRIBLE! I spent the longest time at Old Chang Kee today, choosing from the whole range of golden crisps. Oh my, this has to stop!

2007-07-16T22:05:00.000+08:00

SAY NO TO NO!

2007-07-15T21:54:00.000+08:00

This is stupid, I've got better things to do.

This is bad. Prelims is in approximately one month's time and I need to feel the urgency! Gosh, and I am itching to watch a movie. I can't believe I turned down the movie ticket. Oh man! Why does it have to be Harry Potter! Nvm, I shall wait for Mighty Heart to screen:)

Crap! I am such a slacker. I have been sitting in front of the com in my pyjamas and dorky specs munching on potato chips while talking to Jess on the phone even since I came home from tuition. This is so terrible:(

Just the other day, Ruiyan was saying that she needed a sewing machine to make Shaun's paddle pyjamas and I suggested she could use my grandma's antique sewing machine. Then I realized I didnt know how to use it and now there is no one to teach me how to. I remembered my grandma telling me when she was healthy and well that the sewing machine will be mine when she passed on. And I was dense enough not to let the fact that she is old with only a few years left sink in. If not, I would have visited her more often. And now she's already gone for 3 months. A mere 3 months but it seems so long ago when I rushed to the hospital everyday after trng, when I touch her icy face in ICU and when I did the eulogy for her. Sigh, I miss her.

My mum's idiosyncrasies is getting on me but I'm keeping quiet. My dad is in London so there goes my mediator:(

so blessed, I can't contain it!

2007-07-13T21:39:00.000+08:00

OH MAN!!!! Nationals is over. Our season really ended for good. It has really come to an end after 1.5 years. And I'm glad it ended on a good note:) Oh man, I love love love this team, girls AND guys ( even when you guys bully me so much!) THANKYOU SO MUCH FOR ALL THE MEMORIES THAT NO ONE CAN EVER TAKE AWAY FROM ME!:)

The 3 days at Nationals was a blast! I enjoyed myself thoroughly, the moments we had as a team. All the retarded photographs, the laughs that could have formed abs, I was never happier than when I found that wingnut haha! And cheering till our throats were hoarse for nerve wrecking races!

And our K4! I really want to thank God. He kept his promise, a pact we made long time ago and He got me that medal. It was really a test of faith and this time, I aced it :-) And of course, THANK YOU SO MUCH my dear partners and coaches, really sincerely thank you so so much! I am so thankful for the coaches that devoted their time to help us, teammates that fought hard alongside with us , and my partners that I knew pulled hard for me, whom by a mere look in their eyes, you know they will pull hard with all that they can give together with you for that last race, to avenge, to do it for the team, and that's good enough.

We have now completed our Canoeing season but it feels so weird now. This morning, I stared into my bag for the longest time, wondering why is my bag so empty and this sense of unfamiliarity came over me when I figured out that there is no need to bring trng stuff anymore.OH MAN OH MAN OH MAN! it's making me an EMO KID! And I was waiting impatiently for today to end, so that I can meet my dear team for our date. RAHH! It's the post season blues:( But I felt really very blessed while walking around with the girls just now. Even when we are no longer in Macr and we no longer have trng as the band to gather all of us together, it doesnt ends there.
NO REGRETS:)

And the juniors, they are so sweet. They made me love them, literally! You girls are so cute and sweettt! And they told me that for that one time I scolded them, ( cos we senior girls wrote out a list of our dissatisfaction, and I dont know why I ended up the one doing the scolding) they werent even scared. See la, make me scold them got use ah! Awww, you girls really slowly changed my impression of you all:)

2007-07-05T22:32:00.000+08:00

Stationery shopping just now cos some idiot stole my pencilcase, along with all my markers in all sorts of colours! Goodness la, why would anyone wants to steal stationery?! WA LAU! Although it gives me thrills in buying a new pencilcase and I derive motivation to study harder from new stationery, I am still irked by that chunk of dishonesty. Plus it was so inconvenient the past 2 days without any stationery. So annoying, whoever that ass whose morals are warped. Stupid piece of shit:(

Anyway, we celebrated Chiewyong's birthday yesterday. The clique plus guest appearances Sam, Noelle and Gen:) The surprise was arguably a success since Cy was pleasantly shocked though we were kind of screwed up. I never get tired of singing the Cresent style birthday song, it's just bring back memories of our Crescent days. And we met Genesis Shee too, our class chairman of 3C3/4C3 '05. Ha she hasnt changed a single bit:) It's times like yesterday when we can truly feel the last sentence of our school song. ' The day when we must part, may Crescent remain in our hearts' :-) And we were at Raffles City before the surprise, so we could have gotten donuts from the Donut Factory butttt those lazy bums dont want to queue. I was this close lor!

Melly finished her last race yesterday. And I really like what she wrote on her blog, its kind of fequently used in funerals but I think its still very apt. - 2 Tim 4:7 'I have fought the good fight, I have finished the race, I have kept the faith.' I believe in Him and He will see us through. I want to be able to say this too at the end of my race. I AM GOING to say this at the end! You know, tomorrow will be our last trng at Macr. It feels strange and empty inside to think that we will no longer be fighting together on the water after everything has ended. BUT I guess it's part of life. We will still be a team loving each other and that's all that matters. Time is running out, we should create more memories now!:)

2007-07-02T21:03:00.000+08:00

Hi. I woke up probably an hour ago and I am still feeling very stoned now. And I am very annoyed cos I slept my afternoon away and miss my dinner:( Not that I am hungry anyway but still, I woke up a grouchy girl:( which makes me want to rant to someone now about anything and everything. Maybe I'll call Jess lateer.

Sigh, today just wasnt a happy day, out of the one thousand and one good days I have, maybe because I 've slept half my day away. Anw, today a kid touring the reservior with his sch was watching us carry boats and he looked at me and he went ' Wah, so brave!' Hahaha so cute right! It's nostalgic, makes me want to go back to my childhood again whereby everything looked so magnificient in our eyes, whereas now, when we are all grown up, we tend to belittle the small wonders in our lives.

And since I am in such a mood to rant, I shall tell you about Sheryl Teo and her 2 revolting lizards, Izzy and Mouldy. She brought them to Lydia's house again yest! Then during tuition, they took them out to scare me AGAIN. And my tutor was like' You should overcome your fear you know, go sheryl, throw it at her!' WTH!!! Hi sheryl, please take your lizards out of your bag on Sundays can! Or I swear I'll eat you up! I have a horrible history with lizards:(

There's no trng tmrw, which leave us with 4 more trngs before THE BIG DAY. Ha, in the pic in samme's blog, I say ' Hi, I am gonna kick your ass!(:

2007-06-30T23:59:00.000+08:00

School's been kind to me so far:) It's back to seeing my friends everyday and even Pearly comes to school every day now:) I like going to school everyday, looking forward to trng and seeing my teammates and then going for K4 trng in the Magic School Bus:) Whee!
But the teachers are spoiling it for me with their constant bombardment with lectures and talks about the remaining 6 weeks to the looming Prelims. And they always have the GGxxxed look in their eyes. Rahh, it's not going to be GG lor!
Anw, I wanted to say lots but fatigue is the word to use now so another time.
TOODLES!

COUNTDOWN: 10 MORE DAYS.

2007-06-25T00:29:00.000+08:00

We fought hard. We gave our all for each other, thats all that matters:)

And my throat has been itchy the whole day, thanks to all the screaming and shrieking. Sorry for shrieking girls, I just felt that 'KILL THEM + shrieking' was the ultimate combo haha.

koped from Nina. Check out my coolio hair before the race. RED BLUE GOLD:) AC AC AC! Haha madness!

And then team dinner at Carl's Jrs. All you stupid penguins out there, I am not a pigeon haha!

Anw, HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY SHERYL TEO! You know I love you, just keep your 2 stupid lizards to yourself. Make me hyperventilate again and I'll eat you up! ROAR!

Haha and I am being random, hi #1, #2 and #4!:)

I am so going to miss this hols:(

2007-06-22T15:41:00.000+08:00

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–adjective
1.characterized by or tending toward unprovoked offensives, attacks, invasions, or the like; militantly forward or menacing: aggressive acts against a neighboring country.
2.making an all-out effort to win or succeed; competitive: an aggressive basketball player.
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6.Medicine/Medical.
a.(of a disease or tumor) spreading rapidly or highly invasive; difficult or impossible to treat successfully.
b.pertaining to a risky surgery or treatment, or to a medication that has grave side effects: aggressive chemotherapy.
[Origin: 1815–25; aggress(ion) + -ive] —Related forms
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2007-06-21T20:22:00.000+08:00

HI there.

THE FIRST AND FAVOURITE PAGE OF MY NOTEBOOK/JOURNAL/PLANNER whatever.

It never fails to bring me back on track!:)

NOTHING'S GOING TO STOP US NOW!

Anyway, I have been dreaming every single night, no kidding. I dream till I wake up. Sometimes I wake feeling warm and fuzzy and sweet inside, sometimes just plain melancholy. Seriously, I dream of everything and everyone. Ask me and I'll tell you I dream of you before. The best dream so far was when I dreamt of my grandma:) And my mum is strangely amazed by my nightly dreams so now, she is somehow highly attracted to my bottle of Executive B haha. Now I go to sleep with expectations hurhur.

ECONS MOCK WAS :/ And so we plough through two and a quarter agonising and patronising hours. It was all about write till fall asleep, wake up and write till you fall asleep again. Kick and play with the carpet then STONED:(

2007-06-17T00:36:00.000+08:00

Lalala I am appearing offline again haha. HAPPY FATHER'S DAY! (I missed it by 40 mins alr haha) Anw, dinner with Em and Xue at The Marmalade Pantry yest:) Haha the 3 of us havent have dinner together for ages, I think the last was last year! Haha and Em suggested Myanmar Part 2 after A's, to reminisce our mission trip 4 years ago. Ahaha and Xue and I were like ' NO! Let's go somewhere else!' Haha our Myanmar trip then was so funny, we did stupid things like swimming in the river along with the cows and jumping on floating cow dungs, thinking that they were merely little islands and getting lost in the traumatizing and smelly lavender fields all thanks to Em's good forest instincts (which is why I hate lavender now). And of course the serious part like teaching the small keen to learn kids there English:) But I guess it wasnt as impactful as expected. Okay girls, this time, lets go Mongolia?:)

And whee, Dboat Nats this Sat!:) Let's go girls!

2007-06-15T23:31:00.000+08:00

Hello. I don't know why but I am here again, and at the same time munching on my Kellogg's Rice Krispies:) It's been a bittersweet day and now I am hopelessly trying to squeeze the stubborn facts about BOP Deficit and Surplus into my brain.

I wish time could hold its breath. But it wouldnt.

MAKE EVERYTHING WORTH NOW!

2007-06-15T17:41:00.000+08:00

COLD COLD COLD! After trng, I went back to sch for Maths lesson and when I came out of class, I thought I walked out of a freezer. It was seriously so damm cold inside. Seriously! I even went to the toilet half way to use the hand dryer to thaw my hands. Wa lau, mdm should just turn off the air con. Anw, I 've watched Jasmine's 'warning hot guy alert' movie. Ahaha, I like:) It's like one of the rare shows that has a happy ending:) Not like those unrequited love stories which has loads of misunderstandings and missed/wasted opportunities. It's so irritating when idiots miss each other just because they don't open their stupid mouths, or let their pride and ego get the better of them. Haha I am such a sucker for happy endings:) And Daniel Henney is just too hot la , yes Jas?:)

And so, about freedom fries, as much as I want to eat them NOW NOW NOW, I really wish I wouldnt be able to, I wish the day wouldn't come and everything wouldnt end. I WISH ONLY!

Haha yes I know

2007-06-14T09:29:00.000+08:00

Hello world:) All the birthday cakes, ice cream, brownies and cupcakes are making me fatter:( The cupcakes in the fridge are mysteriously disappearing, one by one each day (all thanks to my brother) Haha FILBERT LIM! YOU ARE GOING TO GROW DAMM FAT! Anw, we celebrated Melly's birthday yesterday:) At Cafe 211 whichs equal to EAT ALOT!:( But nonetheless, it was an enjoyable and lovely time together as a clique, and Sam Kwan! haha guest appearance. Our surprise was a success! I can't believe we actually did it, my gawd! Anw, all the conference calls were all worthwhile. I love conference calls, haha we always laugh like shit! And Melly, glad that you enjoyed yesterday and we were part of your perfect day:) Then there is Melly' sister, Matilda, who is super cute and witty. Haha it was fun entertaining her! And wa lau! Matilda is only P2 and she goes to Shanghai and Beijing for educational exchange programme. Haha madness can!

Okays, gtg to school foor Maths now! See freedom fries on the right? Haha talk about it later:)

2007-06-10T01:28:00.000+08:00

Hello people! I should be really asleep now but I am just too full to go to sleep. Anyway, A REALLY BIG THANK YOU TO ALL THE LOVES FOR MAKING TODAY SUCH A MEMORABLE DAY. I really enjoyed all your company:) Thanks for all the surprises and taking time off to celebrate with me! I feel especially loved and pampered today, or rather yesterday, like I was THE QUEEN FOR THE DAY:) Haha thankew loves :-) and all the msgs sent. I really appreciate them!

Aha, so the clique surprised me last night at 12 am when I was half asleep already. Haha I knew there was going to be a surprise, like every other cliquemate's birthday but I thought it would be on Sat, until my mum gave herself away. Haha girls, my mum cant keep secrets for nuts, or at least she tries. She was pestering me the whole of Thurs and Fri to pack my room cos she claims a buyer is coming over, haha when we are only shifting to our new house next year end. And then last night she kept on insisting that I should sleep at 9pm cos I have trng the next day. Haha WTH! Since when does she bother about trng! And so I kind of suspected already but still it was a pleasant surprise. Haha they were so funny. They were hanging around my house till 12 and then they came into my room with the cake when I was already half asleep. Teehee I love you girls:) We camwhored lots then went over to Melly's house. And I only slept at 3am:( And Melly and I were supposed to wake up at 7 cos I had trng and she had her sailing race. Ha our phone alarms took turns ringing and snoozing and I refused to move my ass until she came to wake me up. Rah so tiring! Haha and Melly Woo! So much for calling me JOANNE LIM for 9 years. She called my mum and said' CAn I speak to Mrs LEE pls!'

And thank YOU LOVELY CANOEING GIRLS for the surprises. I didnt mean to spoil your surprise, I really didn't know. BUT STILL THANKEW LOVES!

And Em and Xue, thanks for everything too! I LOVE YOU TWO LOADS

And my dear classmates, thanks for the company and the good food(though I couldnt eat them) and the pretty cupcakes, even though it was already so late! YOU GUYS ROCK, just stop trying to matchmake me:( SERIOUSLY!

2007-06-06T17:21:00.000+08:00

Hello world:) I left camp last night cos I was being contagious. This stupid flu/cough shit has been on since Sat and I thought I was getting better, apparently not! And the cough syrup is making me sleep all day long :( ( I slept for like 12 hours just now!) I like it though, it tastes like non-carbonated coke haha.

ANW, HIGHLIGHT OF DA WEEK!

VERMONSTER!!!

Treat from Shaun:) After trng on Mon (which wasnt really trng, all thanks to the crocodile), he fetched us to Ben&Jerry's at Demspey Rd for DA VERMONSTER! YUM YUM YUM! And the all of us finished the 20 scoops of ice-cream in like less than half an hour:) THANK YOU SHAUN!:) After which the girls re-plan the camp activites( all thanks to the croc again) which took ages and we only left slightly after ten, not forgetting to take a team photo outside B&J's:) Ahaha, LOVELOVE!

And Canoeing camp yesterday was fun, although I couldn't play some of the games cos of my slightly twisted/ I don't what has happened to it ankle. It's getting better though, just a lil pain when I run. Haha and war games was scary. Cos the stupid boys scared us with their stupid ghost stories. Actually I think we scare ourselves most of the time. If not for those stupid stories, it would just be plain old ACJC at night. And I can't believe I actually allow myself to go to A2.10 haha, but nothing happened. Anw, then my dad came so I had to leave:(

AND HERE'S A HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY TO RUIYAN! PARTNER #1!

2007-06-01T20:05:00.000+08:00

Lalala I am a happy girl today:) Trng went well and mugging was more or less productive! And there is PA Paddles Champs tomorrow! Somehow I am very excited, rather than scared. Anyway, we did K4 again today:)))) and good news is I think I am getting more comfortable in it, plus I am getting used to Ruiyan's stroke rate, since in a k2, I have been setting my own stroke rate all along. It feels good, to be sitting at the third seat, watching all 3 paddles dip into the water at the same time ( or roughly the same time) Haha it's like adrenaline rush:-)

But the mass capsizing sessions the past few days is causing my nose to be terribly blocked. It's like the water is stuck in some part of my face and it's never going to come out:( Anw, capping in a K4 feels so different from K2, it's like you dont know when you are capping, then you are in the water and the boat zoomed past you.

And after trng, the few of us went coffee bean at Holland to mug. MUG EAT MUG. And then Ruiyan, Samme and I went on our little bargaining expenditure. Cos we needed to buy ahem, stuff and they were seriously overpriced (we asked Nina to help us check it out in town) And we were debating whether to use the fierce confrontation approach and the soft approach. We decided to be as sweet as possible in the end. But then, when we went there, the uncle was gone (the first time we went, an uncle was at the stall) Anyway, there was an auntie there and Ruiyan and I were like' Shit, woman!' Haha our stereotypical thinking of auntie being petty and uncles being generally nicer. But the auntie turns out to be very easily convinced:) And so we bought 9 very cute stuff. Haha they are so cute I cant stop staring at them:)

And anyway, I just want to say that every single shop is having a sale now! So it became an unintentional shopping trip yesterday when I went to town to change some stuff. Cos I had to kill time while waiting for my parents to come. And I realized it's nicer to shop alone cos you can take your own sweet time:) And then when I reached home, as in literally stepped into the house, the boys called me to go down to Vivo to try on tanks. When I told them that I just stepped into the house, they were like' Good, then turn around and go out again!' -_-'''. Haha after much much persuasion, I finally convince myself to go down. But in the end my dad didnt want to fetch me and if I went there on my own, I would prob reach there at dinnertime. Sorry guys!!!

2007-05-29T18:36:00.000+08:00

Why get me started on this when you didn't meant it right from the start. Seriously, what a disappointment. This silent game cannot go on forever, I GIVE UP.

Yesterday was a good day:)
It was Daddy's birthday! We went to Lawry's to celebrate:))) Truly an enjoyable time ♥ And just when we finished eating, every single shop in Paragon was closed :/ Killjoy.
Anyway, studying was productive yesterday. The girls and I were at our ' specially for us only' room with aircon and this huge window to stare out when we are bored of studying.
I ♥ the hols.

2007-05-25T20:20:00.000+08:00

I am home alone, today and for the next few days. Everyone else is off on their short holiday. Not that I am complaining since I have the whole house to myself now:) I am a very independent girl:)

Anyway, yesterday was love:) Other than the pain in my arm, everything else was SUNSHINE:))) After sch, I went to Delta Sports Complex to meet the saints. They were there to watch the hockey finals. SA vs VJ. Jess was there too and so we cheered for SA ( although I secretly thought VJ would win) Haha and VJ won in the end. And Melly Woo suddenly popped out from nowhere, screaming (as usual) in surprise. Haha turns out that she was there too to support ACS ib. Yup and so all of us headed down to Great World together. It was a FULL CLIQUE OUTING yesterday ♥ Pirates was good, not wow but just good:) OMG Will Turner and Jack Sparrow :))) And we were almost late for the show cos at 8.41 pm we were all still in Zara waiting for that last person, Melissa Woo to come out of the fitting room.

And I have to say this, why isnt Will Turner and Elizabeth Swan together forever and ever! This is just damm saddening. RAHH.

Pictures!

Crescent Girls at the hockey match!

Melly:)

Timershot

Mirrorshot!

Anywayanyway, I didnt go school today, since it was a half day. And I have a feeling all my classmates didnt turn up as well. Ha I was so determined to go to sch on the last day of school since Mon. Haha I was so determined, until they said there was a half day. So in the end, I met Rach at about 12 plus and Jess joined us shortly after. These two girls are mean. None of them wants to help me carry my nice storybook I brought to read on the bus. So I have to hug the book all over town, and it's hard cover so it jabbed me everywhere:( But nonetheless, it was a lovely time with them:) Best friends ♥

On a heavier note, I have been thinking about differentiating between a dream, an aim and a realistic target. And I've got my conclusion.

Off to read the book Melly lended me yesterday:) It's getting exciting.

2007-05-22T21:05:00.000+08:00

Today seemed like the longest day ever, especially when I had to face physics twice. And my stupid classmates, the boys in particular were irritating me before PE with their useless and superficial questions which I refused to answer:( I dread Tuesdays.

Anyway,

MOVIES OVERLOAD:) Watching Pirates with the clique this Thursday. The tickets were like running out fast and by the time we wanted to book them, there were only the 8.45 pm tickets at Great World left. But nvm, we are still watching no matter what. Orlando Bloom and Johnny Depp, yumyum:) And maybe watching Spidey on Fri:) There's still Shrek 3 and Fantastic Four to go:) Haha LOVE.

Hello Rach, thanks for being such a gem. Haha this girl sounded so concerned and worried when she msged me on Sunday. Apparently, Zhikai thought we were eating protein and of course, he told Rach. Haha no sweat love, of course we are not. Anyway, I havent seen you for the longest time and I can't wait for Friday. ( Finally for once we arent facing competition for your time from your bf haha) <3>

2007-05-19T22:45:00.000+08:00

I ♥ ♥ ♥ today. After trng, the clique met up:) Haven't seen them for ages, except those few I see every Sun for tuition. Haha it was fun talking to them, felt like old crescent times. Shopping was terribly good as well, haha I love retail therapy. Here's the trick to buying what you really want ( this is truly my warped thinking) - For example, if you want to buy a pair of skinny, then tell yourself and everyone else you are not finding a pair of skinny and then as you shop, you will end up chancing upon that pair of desired skinny. But if you desperately try so so hard to search for it, you will probably never find it. Haha I know it's a warped way of thinking. Yup and then after shopping, we wanted to go Melly's house for her homemade pasta and to bake cupcakes ( I don't know whatever for) but Xue called me to go out for dinner. So in the end, I met up with Xue instead at Guthrie House for dinner:) We talked quite abit and catch up before I bused home. I am a happy girl now cos I met up with so many lovelies today.

So take me as you find me

2007-05-17T20:46:00.000+08:00

I am so dead tired.
Okay, National Womens was not as bad as I thought. I am very surprised with Nina and I 's K2 timings, seriously! since like we trained together for barely 10 times. Haha to think I was on the verge of tears on Sat. Haaha for our 1ooom race, we were in the same boat with different race plan. So funny! At the 500m mark, I wanted to call for hard ten so I was like 'BUILDING UP!' and Nina shouted back 'Let's Go!' Haha WTH right. But I was too tired to repeat myself so I just shouted 'Go!' and did our hard ten which didn't felt effective at all. And after our race, I realized Nina didnt even know there was a hard ten. Haha my bad. Then for the 500m race, I shouted 'BUILDING UP' for our last burst and NN Lee shouted 'Let's Go!' again. Haha I was like !!!! So for our semis, I told Nina when I call out for anything, it just means 'building up'. Haha!

Anyway, I want to watch movies. Haha Spiderman 3, Fantastic Four, Pirates, 28 weeks later! Who wants to watch with me:) Everyone isn't free on Fridays when I have all the time in the world cos lessons ends at 1.50.

CLIQUE OUTING ♥ THIS SAT! Whee I cant wait!

2007-05-12T22:41:00.000+08:00

Hi there again. I just came back from church and church made me loads loads better. I have been obsessing and over reacting I forgot God is bigger than everything. I walk by faith, not by sight and He will be with me till I finish the race:)

Jasmine Tan Wei Ting! Haha I am racing against you tmr! It feels weird rowing against a good friend but luckily we are separated by one lane. All the best:)

Okays, need to do visualisation. Ta~

2007-05-12T16:25:00.000+08:00

Hello people. Here's a secret, I am freaking scared now, freaking scared out of my wits that I think I am going to cry. I feel so damm unprepared for tomorrow's race. Qouting Nina, 'i can use my fingers (ONLY!) to count the number of k2 trainings ive had with you up till now'. See! That's why I feel like shit now. I know I have to stay positive and believe in myself and Nina ( but I have zero confidence now! ZILTCH!!!)
See the difference:
Me: Okay, tomorrow we must try to catch up with the rest of the boats
Nina: No, we musn't let the rest of the boats overtake us!
Haha. I suck la.
Quoting Nina again - 'it's not going to matter much, whatever the outcome will be like. we'll just give our best!' Oh no, I am damm damm scared. But no matter what, tomorrow I will give my all. Right, I am going to start psycho-ing myself that I am the fastest.
Sigh. Yesterday, I wasted my day away. I woke up at 11ish, use the com, check out the competitor's list, then fall right into depression. I fell back onto my bed, thought about loads of stuff, till I fall asleep, wake up and start thinking again till I fall asleep.

Anyway, on a much lighter note, we went to Blu Jaz Cafe to celebrate WeiTing's birthday on Thurs night. Haha we had strawberry shortcake:) Then there was this funny convo btw HuiPing and the waitress. The waitress was like 'how many plates do you need?' and Huiping asked how many plates do they have! Haha!
Here's a pic I koped from hp's blog

And who says cabs don't earn money! All the cabs were hired at 10plus and we had to walk all the way back to Bugis Junction. Then we witnessed a fight. Goodness, scary shit! ( so we hurried away)

Anyway I need to calm my nerves now. Bye:)

2007-05-07T00:17:00.000+08:00

I am perplexed. I had a terrible terrible dream last night, so terrible I think I woke up in cold sweat. It was so randomly pieced together. Not only were my friends in it, I dreamt of strangers whom I see in school everyday but never knew them personally. Haha RANDOM I must say. But then again, strangers are just friends waiting to happen:)

So weird, how they actually occur in our minds.

Yup, so I went to trng kind of tired and suffered from cramps/muscle knots. The pain was so sharp I couldn't move. But it wasn't as bad as last week when my teammates had to piggyback me all the way back to the K shed. PIGGYBACKS:) For some reason, my body is totally into cramps. I am a crampy girl.

Anw, here's a shoutout to the clique. Clique outing on the 19th of May, Saturday.

goes up and down, turned into jellybeans:)

2007-05-02T23:27:00.000+08:00

I kind of like life the way it is now. It's all about school, training, family and going out with all my lovely ladies:) Thank God for all my friends, really. Life like this has been rather peaceful. Last month was just terrible shit. That's why I like everything the way it is now.

I just got a baby cousin, today! Haha but I don't know what's her name yet. I have a strong feeling it's going to start with E haha. If I could name her, she would by now be called Molli Sue. ( I know if RY reads this, she will laugh like crazy again)

But somehow it's kind of weird how someone in the family now actually hasn't seen granny before. If only she was a month earlier.

I always thought jellybeans reminded me of newborn babies:)

Right this is very random. I have an ant invasion in my room cos I like to munch in front of the computer and so I have been harassing my daddy about it. I was like ' Daddy, quck, go get the pestbusters! And he was like' ya and you know who will they remove first?!'

Belief

2007-05-01T23:29:00.000+08:00

There are moments in our lives when we find ourselves at a crossroad, scared and confused, without a roadmap. The choices we make in those moments can define the rest of our days. Of course when faced with the unknown, most of us prefer to turn around and go back.

But once in a while people push on to something better. Something beyond the quite persistence of a dream.Because it's only when you're tested that you truly discover who you are and who you can be. The person that you want to be does exist, somewhere in the other side of hard work and faith, and belief and beyond the fear of what life has.

I am glad I pushed and stayed on.

We should all find this little girl in us. It's amazing, the power of our minds have. Believe and have faith! I just read the team blog and the post Jas wrote. It is so so true how important optimism is:)

Went out with half of the girls team after trng today. ( I met some of the junior girls outside Borders after that and they thought we were crazy to train on a public holiday. Haha yes it's Labour Day but Macr was filled with boats anyway) Anw, the girls went to eat at Subway as usual but after the milk, for the first time, that very filling serving of Subway didnt look as appealing. So Char and I went to buy Oyster Mee Sua instead, without oysters haha. The irony of it all. But it's always like that anyway, chicken rice without chicken, Subway without onions but with sweet onion sauce. Then we went shopping:) Haha lovelove!

On another note, I am very disgusted with my fingers now, especially after I removed my plasters. It's becoming like Melodie's ones:( Haha it's painful to hold my pen, plus when it reconcile with my laziness, I end up slacking. Maybe I really do need gloves.

GP mock tmrw. GP overload now.

I want my hair back:(

2007-04-27T21:08:00.000+08:00

I just went to Far East. I just cut my hair, no trim my fringe to be exact. It's FREAKING short now! I look like a stupid boy now:( The hairdresser was still happily chatting to me and snipping off my hair and I had to yank my head in the other direction away from his scissors, I was practically screaming 'CAN ALREADY!!!' . Nobody should try talking to me now, maybe I am too distraught for words. ( Actually I secretly feel that everyone eg. my mummy will prob think my fringe looks the same but that's because you all aren't observant.) I am going through the so called 'post haircut' phrase now:(

My only consolation for today = Haivianas:)

On another note, I love team dinners, like the one on wed. 007 Bang Bang! I laughed till my jaw hurts.

Jackjack

2007-04-23T09:39:00.000+08:00

Yesterday at Macr, there was this oh my goodness he is so adorable angmoh boy. He was so tiny and he looks like Jackjack. Goodness, he was too cute to be true and he was trotting around Macr. So so so cute! I said hi and he smiled, his deep blue eyes were shimmering. Oh my! I want to carry him home:)

I am not in sch today. Partly because my hands hurts:( And then I have loads of work to catch up with. Double :( and hee I slept late last night after loads of teevee. ANTM, my all time favourite show:) actually it's not all about high fashion, it shows people's different attitudes in life, the different personalities and from there, their different level of creativity. And I know who's the winner of Cycle 7 already. Actually, I shouldn't have gone to find out, now there is no suspense left:(

Anw, work beckons and I need to complete them before trng starts so ta~.

I need inspiration

2007-04-19T18:36:00.000+08:00

The first half of April has been so bad, can the second half be kinder to me? Everything is falling on me, one after another and I swear my heart can't take any more blows :(

What now? Follow my heart or follow my head? This sucks and it's making me very unhappy.
Thank God there is still my teammates and my friends:) <3
Yesterday was lovelove. After trng, girls team went out to eat:) We laughed so much till I wanted to die. We just sat there and bitch about other schools' boats haha, just so funny. They make me feel so much better. It's been a long time since we went out like that:)
I am getting into laughing fits these days. Haha today is another day I laughed till I wanted to die, during tennis and when we were talking shit, literally shit.

I am ranting to Melly online now. Rahrahrah and she is giving me her sailing point of view. Thank God for her too:) It feels better just pouring everything out once again:)

Not just another negotiation

It never rains,but it pours

2007-04-17T11:33:00.000+08:00

If you want to see the rainbow, you have to put up with the rain. But after all that has happened, maybe I don't see the rainbow anymore.

2007-04-12T15:32:00.000+08:00

Everything feels much better after a 3 hours sleep:) Today was such a terrible and gloomy day. My throat was so sore and my head felt so heavy. I 've survived half day of sch and that's when I cant take it anymore and I called my daddy to come and pick me up ( he's not working today cos there is still some funeral stuff to settle even though it's over). Then after a while, I recieved another call from him. He said the school called home and there was a parcel for me in the GO. So I went to the GO and guess what, Em and Xue got me a bouquet of roses to cheer me up:) They are just too sweet and thoughtful. Haha they had it delivered to school la:) Oh my goodness, thank you so so much my dears:) My day become so much happier because of you both. And I am so touched by what they wrote in the card. They are truly real friends:) And in the car on the way home, my daddy said true friends are hard to come by but you only need a few:) I lovelovelove you Em and Xue, my dear friends of 9 years:) They've got my back and I 've got theirs:))))

Yes and I could feel all the stares on me when I was carrying the flowers. So so embarassing! Good thing my daddy came to pick me up after that.

Like what they have said in the card, there is nothing sorry about eternal joy and everlasting life in heaven:) Yesterday was her funeral. The most touching yet saddening part was when my daddy and my 3 uncles, her 4 sons carried her 'box' out to the van to send her on my last journey home. ( I don't really like the word 'coffin'). It was such a long day, and painful but not as painful as I thought. Maybe because I know she would rather be with the Lord than to suffer here. This will be the last post about the grieving of my grandma. She is gone but like what Em said, fond memories of her would be able to suffice till I meet her again.

My daddy and granny

2007-04-09T23:22:00.000+08:00

The most agonising weekend I ever had. I feel so withdrawn from the world after this 5 days hiatus. Sorry if I am going to be some emo shit the next few days :(

And thank you so much for those who prayed for my grandma, the msgs to console me. And melly, thanks for cheering me up. I feel loads better after talking to you. And Em and Xue too:) Thankew so so much for coming all the way down to the wake even though there's sch tmr. I love you both loads:) And thanks Em for the Krispy Kremes doughnuts! I am so much better after seeing you two, my friends for life:) You two made my day:)

I know that it's part and parcel of life but now that she's gone, i know it will never be the same again. I don't know why everything happens so freaking suddenly. Like WTH. After we visited her in the ICU on friday, Filbert and I went home while my parents stayed overnight to watch over my granny. Then at about 4 plus am, my mum called to ask us to go down to the hospital, telling us that my granny's heart collapsed and the doctor saved her but it will short lived. We rushed down and when we were downstairs, it was so so close, my mum called and said she was gone already. Her heart collapsed 3 times and the doctors tried to save her 3 times but the last time, she really had to go. It is just damm heart wrenching la to see her at her deathbed, so lifeless and frail. She seemed so small suddenly but despite this fact, she looked so peaceful, still as amiable as before. Her body was so hard, like all the muscles cramped up and it's just feel so alienated touching her face. Her face became so stiff and cold, icy cold. She was really really gone for good. The scene was just so tragic, everyone was crying and devastated, and my grandpa, he must have been drenched in pain. This feeling of loss, I really don't wish to experience again. My uncle was worse, he was in a state of self denial. Everyone else left the room already except my uncle and I when the nurse came in. She asked us leave the room first while she remove the tubes and clean my granny up. And my uncle asked the nurse if my granny was dead. Through my teary eyes, I shot him a questioning look and even the nurse was stunned. She was like ' the doctor talked to you already right?' I guess its just so hard to accept.

And my granny was so considerate to the end. She prepared her funeral photo and chose the clothes she want to wear 10 yrs ago, knowing that we will be at a loss of what to do when she passed away. She even told my grandpa not to inform her friends cos they were all about her age and she didnt want them to travel up and down to her wake. But her friends came anyway and I didn't know she had so many friends, it's serously like so so many, her church friends, karaoke friends and neighbours. And during her wake yesterday, I answered a call and it was a woman looking for my granny. I was so momentarily shocked and when she repeated her question again, I didn't know how to break the news to her. And when I finally did, she rushed down to the wake and she turned out to be an 80 year old woman holding a walking stick who used to be my granny's childhood friend. She and my grandpa were like crying together. It's just damm sad la.

But despite all of us still holding on, I guess she is happy to go. Her pastor told us during the service yesterday that when he visited her on Thursday, she was pleading him to pray for her that the Lord would take her home faster. I guess she was really suffering and she is better off in Heaven. Like what Em said, she is having a major party in Heaven now. And I am very very super sure she with the Lord now. Guess why. Cos my mum had a dream when she was staying overnight at the hospital at about 4 am, right before the first heart collapse. She dreamt of my grandma sitting on a rock in a beautiful garden, holding my daddy's hand. She was smiling, like how she always does and she slowly released my daddy's hands. And then my daddy sort of flew out of the picture. So even though the sadness overwhelms me now, I am slightly comforted by the fact that she is in good hands and she is no longer in such torment and pain.

I think she is so so beautiful, on the inside and outside :)

Tmr she will turn into dust.

After tmr, all I have left of her are only photos, fond memories of her bringing me up, our many holidays together and the pendant she gave me.

It's going to be another emotional day all over again.

2007-04-06T23:33:00.000+08:00

It's scary to see how things take its turn for the worse just like that. It's so scary that it makes me so uneasy all the time. Just 2 days ago, granny could still talk and all, yes although she was always moaning in pain, that teeny part of me held on so tightly to the belief that she will be healed. But after church today, I went to visit her and she couldn't recognize us already. She was just bawling in pain and it hurts to see her in this state yet feeling so helpless. When I reach home later in the day, it was barely a while when we got another call from my uncle telling us granny was in ICU already. We rushed down and thank God thank God thank God her condition stablised but she is living on the machine now to help her breathe. Rarw, it hurts really, to see her dazed and frail with all the tubes in and out of her body, nothing like the plump loving generous heart she used to be. Everything just deteriorated so rapidly, it consumed me totally. I know it's coming soon, very very soon. I really really don't want it to. As much as I don't want her to and also to feel the rising dread of experiencing the pain when she..., I know maybe suffering will end when... Sometimes, the greatest gift to your loved one is to assume the pain from them to oneself. At least I know she will be safe and sound with the Lord.
Yes you have finished reading already so pray for her please.

2007-04-05T20:13:00.000+08:00

Here's one of my favourites

Who am I?
That the Lord of all the earth,
Would care to know my name,
Would care to feel my hurt.

Who am I?
That the bright and morning star,
Would choose to light the way,
For my ever wandering heart.
Not because of who I am,
But because of what you've done.
Not because of what I've done,
But because of who you are.

I am a flower quickly fading,
Here today and gone tomorrow,
A wave tossed in the ocean,
A vapor in the wind.
Still you hear me when I'm calling,
Lord, you catch me when I'm falling,
And you've told me who I am.
I am yours.
I am yours.

Who am I?
That the eyes that see my sin
Would look on me with love
And watch me rise again.

Who am I?
That the voice that calmed the sea,
Would call out through the rain,
And calm the storm in me.

I am yours.
Whom shall I fear?
Whom shall I fear?'
Cause I am yours.
I am yours.

- Who am I by Casting Crowns

It never fails to make me warm and fuzzy inside:)
It's Good Friday tmrw.

Life's been a routine lately. School, train, go hospital, go home and sleep, and the cycle starts all over again the next day. Except probably for the occasional highlights like sneaking into nj to surprise Rach, National Juniors Championship, studying session with Xue and Em at Guthrie House which ended up more like a chitchatting session haha.

Was browsing around and I chanced upon these priceless photos:)
Munk-ies ♥

lovelove:)

ZOOM ZOOM

2007-03-29T21:01:00.000+08:00

Pizza Hut with WeiTing and YanRong:) It's one of first few times I didnt pang-seh them but Pearly and HuiPing couldn't come:( But neh-mind haha there's always another time. Food was yumyumyum although there were limited choices, but at least better than Macs where we can only eat double cheeseburger/ grilled chicken foldover. That's why I don't really want to go Macs, everyone around me is chomping on fries fries fries!

Oh and Rach calls me her little heartthrob No.2:) Yes rach, you're my heartthrob No.2 too! Heartthrob No. 1 is adorable little Kim Tae Hoon, the super pro soccer player for his age pretty boy haha:)

Went to Mount E yesterday to visit my Grandma and I got lost in the building. I took so many gazillion lifts and I still couldn't find the ward which got me damm pissed, especially when you come out from the lift with not a single soul in sight ( in a hospital! ) Oh my, gives me the creeps. I finally found my Grandma and she seems a little better alr:)

And now Vectors beckons.

HEY HEY YOU YOU

2007-03-26T11:30:00.000+08:00

My finalised skin:) Pretty? Pretty!

Saturday was good shopping day with good buys and great company:) Yumyum, I want more shopping! Anw I am watching The Phantom of the Opera on 8th April with Jess, whee I can't wait! We've been waiting since last year x)

On another note, i am telling you cramps can kill. My life depends on painkillers now (which I like alot cos they are really very effective) but I'm running out of them.

Short entry yes but I 've to go pack my room, pack my files, pack my life.

2007-03-14T22:42:00.000+08:00

My blogskin is screwed. But nvm, I want a new one anyway. New skin next week:)

2007-03-14T01:42:00.000+08:00

I wish I had 4765 hours a day, then I wouldn't have to try so hard to squeeze everything I need to study for Terms within this week ( but to no avail). My brain is seriously overflowing with Organic Chem:( Its like when I finish studying hydroxyl compounds, I 've already forgotten all that's about alkyl halides :( And I have seriously severely short concentration span which leads to super unproductive studying. I WISH I HAD A SUPER BRAIN. Studying makes me emo and I wanted to be an emo kid today haha but positive self talk (from the sports psychology talk) really helps. Ha I feel retarded for being happy all over again just by talking to myself:) Studying at home = Unproductive studying. Hehs so I am meeting Jess in town to study tmrw:) Lets cross our fingers and hope it will be a fruitful day!

On a very random note, I have a sweet tooth and I want to go to The Candy Empire. And I have the sudden urge to watch movies. Must be too much brain drain.

2007-03-12T17:14:00.000+08:00

MUGGING :(

I am already thinking of post terms activities. I want retail therapy/ sleepovers/ clique outings/ Phantom Of The Opera :))))

2007-03-09T23:46:00.000+08:00

I like the warm and cuddly feeling after my long bath after such a long day, not to mention a frantic one. Cos I lost my phone, or at least I thought I lost my phone. Thank God Elaine found it. Hehs guess where was it? Being me, I left my phone in church after cell. I felt really helpless and insecure just now, and it was just yesterday when I was talking to Huiping about losing phones. Being a scatterbrain is no fun at all, but I think I 've improved ALOT since Crescent days. THANKYOU XUE FOR SETTLING MY PHONE STUFF. YOU ARE SUCH A DEAR:)

Cell today after a long long time. It's always Em Xue and I missing in action, like long sheeps (what Elaine used to say) I know I know I know x100 it's bad to skip cell on fridays :( I think Filbert and I have the same problem. We don't go for cell often, no matter how much our parents nag. It's bad, esp when I go for cell after so long and there are already newcomers there. And I see that they already know about us, from their 'Ohhs' when Howai told them 'the triplets'. Haha He calls us the triplets. Fine!
Right, I will try my best to go for cell more often:) But at least we still go for service every Sunday right!

Oh no Oh no Oh no! 7.30 am at Kallang tmrw. Which means I have to wake up at wee hours in the morning when all I want is to stay in bed till 12pm:( And I need to study very badly. I am drowning in the piles of work from merciless complex numbers to terribly illogical superposition. Sadly, I am stuck in this vicious cycle which I am very determined to get out of. I still trying.

I need to sleep now, so that I can wake up tmrw before any normal being does.

2007-03-05T21:02:00.001+08:00

2007-03-04T10:32:00.000+08:00

Dearest Jess,

Please don't stay teary too long. Cry your hearts out all at once, it can always help you feel loads better, at least it helps for me. And then you need to move on. I know comforting words won't help much and so if you still need a shoulder to cry on, your best friend is always there to cry with you. Cheer up my dear and be the girl that smile all day long once again:)

Maybe because it's so elusive, thats why I choose not to believe.

2007-02-27T13:59:00.000+08:00

Okay, reality check. Yes, REALITY CHECK! I wish I wasn't living in such a real world.

Anw, today has been a GOOD day:) No dreadful physics, no PE ( btw Sir reminded me yesterday to go for PE today) , nothing for today. I want to collect myself, just for today:)

It is so true that the greater I expect, the more disappointed I become. But then again, when we were all younger, didn't the adults tell us to aim far and set high expectations?

I happen to understand that we humans are complicated creatures. Or maybe its just me.

2007-02-20T21:04:00.000+08:00

CNY made me happy all over again:) Pineapple tarts makes me even happier. I love visiting cos you get to try the different pineapple tarts. Haa, I am going crazy over them. And I had alot of fun during this break with all the visiting, catching up, collecting Ang Pao money, watch Filbert play with my ridiculously noisy cousins and winning money:) But Mahjong was tough, it was against all the pros and haa, in the end Godma paid for my expensive tuition fees.

And today was pigging out session. I ♥ my besties. We went visiting from Jess's to Rach's to my house. They came over only for a little while then all of us had to rush off. But it's okay cos after Terms, they are coming over to swim and bake cookies ( I'll make it an exception because it's them) And then the next stop was Melly's house. Although not the whole clique was there, it was still ever so enjoyable catching up with them. I'm so glad for the break cos we won't be meeting up so often in future.

Right and I had 4 hrs of sleep last night and I am rahhrahhrahh tired now. Filbert and I were crapping with my mum ( on very random stuff like how she gave birth to us) and before we know it, it was 3.30 am. You know, my brother used to have a twin. But he died when my mum was 2 months pregnant. Coming to think of it right, life would be how different if I had 2 younger twin brothers. But oh well, its God's will and I am perfectly fine with one still irritating but getting more mature with quite a good sense of humour brother.

Okay, off to sleep.

2007-02-16T21:32:00.000+08:00

Okay, forget all the crap I went through this whole week, forget about being angsty, forget about feeling sick, forget all the stress, forget the world. I am very much at peace with the world right now and my heart is just glad there's CNY break for me to breathe.

2007-02-15T19:36:00.000+08:00

This whole week was so agonising, I thought I was going to stop breathing. And currently, I am feeling feverish and so terrible and angsty and irritated. I am seriously drained out, with all the horrible tests/trngs/fund raising. I am telling you, I am never ever going to bake another cookie in my whole entire life ever again. Mass production of cookies sucks, they really do. It is such a tedious process and it takes FFFing long to bake such large quantites. I HEREBY PROCLAIM I HATE COOKIES AND I AM VERY ANGRY WITH THE WORLD. I was so angsty and tired I vented my frustation on the waitress. I need sleep so terribly. I figured out that when the accumulative fatigue reaches the limit, the sudden sharp pain in my heart will come back again. Really, all I want is time for myself and to sleep. But thank God that amidst of all these crap, He guided me through and I have my friends encouraging me plus all the Valentine's day gifts to perk me up:) Thanks for all the pretty roses, chocolates, rainbow sprinkle cookies, giant lollipops and lovely notes:) It really made a difference.

2007-02-04T22:56:00.000+08:00

WHEE! SINGAPORE WON:) Haha, watching soccer matches makes me want to watch Shootdori all over again. ♥ soccer kiddos, Kim Tae Hoon esp! My star player:)

And check out my current/new love - the Crescent Bear:) It's not exactly the genuine Crescent bear actually, cos apparently, Noelle stole the uniform from the real one and clothe this bear instead. Ha I bet all of us look like that in Sec1, wearing our skirts at waistlevel.

2007-01-31T22:51:00.000+08:00

I realized, I was very tired yesterday and so the previous post had alot of spelling/grammar errors.
I am starting to feel overwhelmed by school and trngs.
I miss our clique very badly :( I wish, I wish we could go back to those Crescent days.

2007-01-30T23:19:00.000+08:00

I am getting very annoyed that I feel lethargic so easily these days and I either fall asleep on my sofa or doze off when trying to study for Chem SPA. And I think its the post-marathon sypthoms. Yes, the National Canoe Marathon is over and it was really an experience. I liked our first 2 rounds ALOT, with all the taking of boats and occasional hard tens, and especially the portage cos everything went smoothly and it's the only time I get to drink water. And then came the dreadful third round when everything bad happened. We got tired/ capped while turning/ the two tiny boys in banana boats didn't know how to empty water/ we got back onto our sinking boat and continue/I could practically felt my heart drop each time the wave hits our boat and water gets in/Melodie's cap flew away/ we wasted more time when the speed boat came along a long time later to help us empty water /the wind and waves got so strong and I was so stressed. Ha but at least we completed it:)

And and and Vday is coming(: Time to get presents for everyone and i better do it soon if not it will be as last minute as last year.

Right, Goodnight.

2007-01-26T21:45:00.000+08:00

I am pretty much a happier girl now. Melodie's fingers are real better and they should be well enough to row for the marathon on Sun:) And we need to get our partner caps soon but we can't seem to come to an agreement on which cap to buy. I refuse to wear Melodie's blingbling diamond studded Superman sign cap to row neither does she wants to buy the Adidas one that I like. And we spent half the time arguing over which one is better, ha you can probably imagine right! No way I am getting that Superman cap!

2007-01-22T23:07:00.000+08:00

JOANNE MUST LEARN TO STAY STRONG DURING ROUGH TIMES.
JOANNE MUST LEARN TO CONTROL HER TEARGLANDS.
MELODIE AND JOANNE ARE GOING TO PULL THROUGH TOGETHER
AND TRNG WILL GO BACK TO NORMAL.
I BELIEVE IN OUR PARTNER MAGIC.

2007-01-21T12:07:00.000+08:00

I went home yesterday after trng with a very heavy, probably 100kg heart. Not because I can't train with Melodie for the marathon. I was more of thinking about how are we going to train in future. And after wallowing in all my usual negative and pessimistic thoughts for a long time, I FINALLY figured out that no problem is bigger than Him and tomorrow will worry for itself:)

Anw, on a lighter note, yesterday we celebrated Xue's birthday at the Daybed with Em and Xue's RJ friends. HAPPY 18TH BIRTHDAY MISS CHUANG XUELING! And I can't drink for nuts but since it's Xue's birthday and Em and Xue are there to protect me, it's okay:) I love you both. We have watched each other grew up, since Pri 4! I really can't believe we have come this far.
♥ YOU BOTH!

2007-01-13T14:08:00.000+08:00

my ♥s

2007-01-09T18:49:00.000+08:00

I know trivial stuff doesn't matter much but this one hurts alot, DAMM ALOT. It's trivial, but it stings like shit whenever I think of it. You should have known better than to say those FFFing hurting words. WTH la.
And to Jess, thanks for always being my plaster :)

2007-01-02T21:06:00.000+08:00

Did I mention before that my partner is the sweetest girl? Haha guess what Melodie got for me? Quite hilarious and ironic actually, especially when it's coming from her:) She got me EAR PLUGS! Ha as you should know right, Melodie Tay is always talking loads of crap and rubbish in and outside of the boat. You should have been there when sometimes while rowing, she will start talking about her chao ren and poor me will have to bear with her. Haha and so I am always complaining to her and everyone else that ONE FINE DAY, I am just going to stuff my ears with ear plugs:) And that's what she got me, EAR PLUGS:) Quite lame but SWEEET:) THANK YOU! Thank you for putting up with me when the stupid wind and waves makes me super moody in the water. Remember our trashy T2 trngs? Thank you for sticking together:) And for all that we have been through together, crying moments and crazy times:) Thanks for everything!

2006-12-29T14:22:00.000+08:00

Ok, I changed my mind. I shall do my econs, or at least complete Day 2 today. Ha and I was reading Sheryl's blog just now which reminds me, I haven't blog about my physics tuition yet. It's a class of five, namely Lydia, XueQin (Lydia's friend), Sheryl, Subing and me. And we always go to Lydia's house 2 hours before tuition starts to do our tuition H/W, or maybe 2 and a half hours since our tuition teacher always comes late. But we don't really do our homework when we are all together cos we do stupid stuff. Hai these people are so distracting and noisy that I have to stuck my earpieces into my ears and blast my Ipod in order to do my H/W. But on top of my loud music, I still can hear their muffled voices. And my tutor thinks I am crazy cos I am always laughing to myself when he sees me but that's just because Sheryl Teo can control her laughter very well. He doesn't exactly know our names so he calls me ACJC. But all in all, I think he teaches quite well so nuff said:)
Oh and yes, I want to say a BIG thankyou to everyone who called and msged and was concerned about my heart. It's pretty much fine now, except for the very very very occasional pain which is really very minimal that sometimes when it comes, it gives me the impression that I am thinking too much. Yup and I hope it doesn't come back, ever. BE GONE!

2006-12-28T17:44:00.000+08:00

On my way home just now, Mr. Brain decided to put himself to good use and started thinking. You see, that's why I hate being alone doing nothing, you'll start to think. ALOT. Yes, I thought alot cos the bus ride was so long. Coming to think of it right, this whole holiday is stupid. Not that I didn't enjoy it but that I totally neglected the things I didn't enjoy. I haven't open a book for ages. I did try to attempt the econs HW and who says getting started was the hardest. I started on it 3 weeks ago and now I am still stuck at Day 2 Part 1 and I have no intention on completing it. Right, and yesterday before tuition, I opened the Physic's TYS for the first time and tried the first question. Maybe I am just plain dumb because I couldn't do even the first question. Hmmm take a deep breath and try again. No, still cannot get the answer! I went hysterical. I went shouting for help for damm long and no wonder Sheryl said I was so noisy yesterday. Last year wasn't like that. I knew, my parents knew, that I didn't study very hard this year. I did do my best for my papers but I didn't study hard enough. Yes and I know it's because of the resentment lurking within me this whole year but I just didn't want to deal with it, to get rid of it. I mean, like what am I supposed to do when I 've worked so bloodly hard just to get 10 points. I knew, God knew, my parents knew, Jake knew I don't deserve a 10. And when people were like 'what happened?' , all I could do was shift uncomfortably in my seat, plaster that goofy smile on my face and reply ' Ya, I screwed up my O's'.
My father said I have lost focus already. Yes I know I know I know. I have been stupid enough to get angry with God for not giving me what I rightfully deserve. At least now I know everything happen for a reason. And why I got a 10.

Yes and so enjoy the last days of the holiday and when sch reopens, start preparing for A's :)
Speaking of Jake, I kind of miss him. He's probably the best best best tuition teacher that ever existed. Melly, can we meet up with him soon

2006-12-22T01:56:00.000+08:00

Greetings from Melly's house :) I am very extremely superly terribly hideously absurdly tired now but I cannot sleep :( Cos we made a pact, not to sleep for the whole night, then only can it be truly a sleepover. But I am like how tired now, especially when there is trng today. Anw, we have pizza/mushroom soup/shirley temple/chocolate ice-cream which is yet to be eaten for dinner. Yummy Yummy:) After dinner, Chiewyong and I got inspired by the TV show and we started googling Joe Ma. Haha I wanna laugh. We are baking ugly cookies now, at 2 am. Haa cos cookie cutters can't be used and thinking straight is the last thing I can do. We still have to decorate the christmas tree/ fry pancakes for breakfast/ watch sunrise etc. Hahah but everyone is stoned and Geyi is sleeping alr.
Oh yes! sth exciting. I tried Cboat today:))) So fun but mass capping session. But still very fun haha.
Bye!

2006-12-20T20:29:00.000+08:00

It was a disaster at Macr today. I am telling you right, I HATE ANTS!!! Ants are probably humans' worst enemies. They crawl on you in numbers and bite you at mere whim all over, especially when you are doing your push-ups. How considerate right! There was an ant invasion in our shed today. And mind you, they were all over/inside out of my bag, although Melodie got it worse. Stupid ants! It took us forever trying to eradicate/drown them. Ha but at least our shed is clean now.
On the brighter side, we watched Eragon today, with the team:) Superduper IAMCERTAINYOUWOULDNTWANTTOMISSASECONDOFIT nice:) Great entertainment plus great company equals to I've enjoyed today, except for the ants.
And and and and, SLEEPOVER TMR!!! This is so exciting. I can't wait, I can't wait!!!

2006-12-17T20:51:00.000+08:00

Happy Birthday HuiPing and Ca :)

I figured out I prefer this picture better :) Anw, today's plan to surprise HuiPing was very screwed, and in the end, she was more of blur and confused than surprised but the whole episode was still very funny. Very screwed but everything flowed naturally so HuiPing thought all our loopholes were meant to be surprises haha. Yup and so a great time with HuiPing, Wei, Pearls and YanRong:)

Anw, we promised that next year, sch library will be our favourite hangout.
YESYES! STOP SLACKING, START STUDYING!!!

2006-12-12T13:27:00.000+08:00

Hi all lovelies! I am back :))) Yup and I had a whopping great time with all the scenery and family time, plus adding alot more pretty bags to my bags collection which made my Mummy fuming quite abit.
And now, presenting to you the pictures !

My family at the organic farm

Lunch at Orna Golf Country Club

Beautiful shots right!

Outside Putra Mosque

My family excluding Daddy

And we take a short ferry ride

Mummy and I :) I LOVE the view behind us

View of Marriott

And I was totally drooling at the hotel's Christmas decorations. So lovely I am telling you!

LOVE the snowman

Yup, that's about all. Sight-seeing and shopping in the day and lazing around at night, watching TV, going for drinks/cocktails at the bar. Oh yes, here's sth which I thought was damm hilarious.

My grandpa was asking my brother how to pronounce the place we were at

Filbert: Putra Jaya

Grandpa: Putra Tata?

Filbert, trying to control his laughter and taking a deep breath : Putra Jaya

Grandpa: Putra Yaya?

Filbert: No! Putra Jaya!!!

Grandpa: Orhhhh, Putra Yaya!

Hahaha,ROFL. So cute!

2006-12-06T21:00:00.000+08:00

New picture for Christmas! Red and White, Santa's colours, MY Santa's colours! Chalet was fun! Cooking was damm hilarious, like some housewife gathering where everyone was chopping vegetables, peeling eggshells, cutting fruits and frying meat.Yes we were all greedy raisins thiefs and Ruiyan was the police. Haha but the food turned out well, although you wouldn't want to see the behind-the-scenes. And now being very random, I want to go to The Candy Empire, more chocolates, gummies and more chocolates:) Right, off to read my book.

2006-11-30T21:13:00.000+08:00

Finally, a doctor that did me justice. Her medicine actually works and so lets cross our fingers and pray hard it will remain this way. Ohhh and here's 2 lovely movies yet to be shown.

I AM CYBORG, I AM OKAY

SEDDUCING MR PERFECT

Wahaha RAIN AND DANIEL HENNEY :) THREE CHEERS FOR KOREAN MOVIES <3

2006-11-29T23:18:00.000+08:00

DO YOU KNOW WHAT MELISSA WOO DID TO ME TODAY! SHE DROPPED MY PHONE INTO A PLATE OF OIL WHEN I WAS SHOWING HER THE PICTURE OF OUR PRETTY WREATH ON OUR SHED. NOW IT SMELLS OF AGLIO OLIO. AND IT STINKS!!! I AM SO NOT KIDDING. AND SHE SAID NEVERMIND! YOUR PHONE IS WATERPROOF NOW!?!
HAIYA, BUT SINCE YOU ARE SMELLY MELLY, YOU ARE FORGIVEN! HAVE A NICE TRIP OF UK!
And trng today was sighhhh. But nevermind, I am going to another doctor with Melodie tomorrow :)

2006-11-28T21:13:00.000+08:00

MY HEART MY HEART MY HEART MY HEART MY HEART MY HEART MY HEART MY HEART MY HEART. It's not really affecting me but yet somehow affecting me. How now brown cow? How now yellow cow?

2006-11-26T21:35:00.000+08:00

At last, something to excite me and forget about all the heartbeat shit. It's better today I guess, except for the occasional moments when the pain just comes and go. I don't like that feeling. How weird I always like to say my heart cannot take it. Anyway, something exciting - making christmas presents! Haha it's going to be damm cool. And here's something even cooler. Today when me, Geyi and Tze Yuen were out, we met the rest of the monkeys. Haha this is what I call fate. They were bringing Jap tourists around. Yup and we had a very random clique outing :)
Plus, Melly is back today :)

2006-11-26T00:13:00.000+08:00

And I went to the doctor because I couldn't take the horrible feeling of my heart pounding so hard and it was getting on my nerves. The abnormal heartbeat thing that comes and go feels terrible. Yucks Yucks Yucks :( But the doctor couldn't find anything wrong with me. How brilliant! And all he could do to help was talk about sudden deaths blah blah blah and canoeing blah blah blah. Haiya, waste my time.

2006-11-25T19:10:00.000+08:00

In the past, when I first joined canoeing and everyone else was already trng for 3 whole months, going straight in a T2 was the last thing I could do. For weeks I was just changing partners, snaking around from one end to the other, feeling all stupid and sorry for my partner since I was the weird one who couldn't go straight at all. Trngs became so trashy, getting all the dirty glances from strangers because our boat was blocking their path, not finishing the programmes and sometimes not even half. Crying suddenly became so normal. I remembered crying while rowing back and everything just didnt make sense. But I guess what pushes me on was my teammates - their constant encouragement and knowing they will be there for me. When things reaches its worst, it can only get better right. I love you girls, we love all 15 of us :) Yes, we are more than teammates.

Right and just now, I had this random but 'I am so dead sure happened for a reason' talk with Melodie. You see, there was this part of me hidden inside silently fading away. I don't know where am I now with God and I have no clue what to do about it. Life still goes on and I am just like an idiot, waiting for the answer to fall on me. Have you heard that recently many young people die from sudden heart attacks and doctors say those with sudden chest pain and abnormal heartbeat rates should seek consultation soon? And my yesterday was like that. And I thought what if I die soon, as in seriously. What hit me real hard was - What will happen when I stand in front of the gates of heaven? What will He say to me? Yes, I thought very hard.

2006-11-22T15:31:00.000+08:00

CRAMMPY CRAMMPY

MY WRIST IS HURTING SO BADLY I AM GOING CRAZY. IT'S GETTING GETTING GETTING ON MY NERVES AND I STRONGLY FEEL I SHOULD JUST START PRACTISING WRITING WITH MY LEFT HAND JUST IN CASE.

2006-11-20T10:11:00.000+08:00

Tell Me Why

EMO KID IS BACK! You see, I have been thinking alot after cell, which I don't often go, as you should know. Ya, and you see, I know one thing for sure, ACJC and Canoeing are God's will, He wanted me to. But ever since, I have been drifting away, so far away it's hard to get back. I have never doubt His heart of love, well maybe alittle, since I have drifted so far away sometimes I just can't feel His presence anymore. Yes, and all I want now is to Return Home.
AND EMO KID IS MISSING EVERYONE NOW. Chiewyong just left for New Delhi, Melissa is already in Mumbai and she hates the food there, Jess is in China, Lydia in Europe. And I miss SHINY SHOE CLUB. Xue is in Cambodia and I haven't seen M for ages. EVERYONE! YOU ARE SORELY MISSED. PLEASE COME BACK SOON :) YES WITH PRESENTS PLEASE :))))

2006-11-16T10:05:00.000+08:00

SANTA'S COMING

Hey you lovelies out there, Christmas is coming :) Hah I've realized too after staring at all the christmas decorations in town and listening to catchy christmas songs playing repeatedly in shops. CHRISTMAS <3.>

2006-11-13T16:01:00.000+08:00

Jung Ji Hoon

Don't ask me why because I have no idea too. I can't believe I actually am starting to like Rain. Jasmine Qiu!!! How come?! How now brown cow? And I think I am addicted to the table soccer game. Wahaha. Went to Raffles Town Club yesterday and I discovered my brother's favourite game there was quite fun afer all. It was so addictive I wonder how much we spent on that game.
Trng today was crazy. Swim trng made me feel like a drowning fish. Plus I am going to swim with Xue and M at her club tomorrow. I swear I am just going to float around while they can do their lapping. I feel a little hydrophobic now.

2006-11-08T16:35:00.000+08:00

Goodbye PW forever and ever.

and I lived happily ever after. I am feeling so liberated. Wahaha. I was talking to Liduan last night and I miss her soso much. It's been 3 years since she left Singapore. Time really do fly damm quickly, doesnt it. It seem so yesterday when we were all so close together. I could tell that she was really homesick :( So sad, I miss our Sec 2 days. And Jess is going to meet her in China. Wahaha, maybe we should get her Singapore food too.
Ohoh and here's my favourite boy No.2

The pretty boy in black. Lovelove<3

No.8 Kim Tae Hoon - Striker, my star player.

He plays damm well for his age:) And he is so superly CUTE. Soccer kiddos <333.

2006-11-06T16:39:00.000+08:00

Dear Miss Manners.

2006-11-02T16:44:00.000+08:00

Whee, I love my cookies:) Haha baking was a success and even my fussy wussy brother loves my cookies. A pity I can't seem to upload the photos, there's like all sort of shapes. Heart-shaped, round-edged, diamond-shaped+++ . It's saved for my favourite 8 monkeys tomorrow. Then I am going to bake them for everyone:))) Maybe I shall try brownies next time. Or gingerbread man with royal icing!

2006-11-02T12:12:00.000+08:00

headsoverheels/

Isnt he adorable:) And he is an eight year old goalie. Haha damm cute, my favourite player. Jasmine Qiu, have you watched it yet?! I love soccer kiddos<3
Oh Yes, I am going to attempt to bake cookies cookies cookies Chocolate Chip Cookies. Lets see if it turns out well.

2006-10-31T12:53:00.000+08:00

Yes, Indeed I am very bored now cos everyone else except me is studying for their Chinese A's. Right, I shall find sth productive to do. Oh Yes, if my parents' Japan trip is cancelled, we might be going Bangkok instead. Yay, more shopping and more shopping:)
After reading all my friend's blogs since I am so dreadfully bored, I think everyone miss Crescent terribly. I miss all the stupid things we did as a class, burying our dead pet fish near the Tamil teacher's rose and getting scolded very badly by her for attempting to kill her rose which was already no where in sight, planting plastics pineapples which got stolen, bullying Mrs Gek, our acting Sec1 day, I miss all of you girls. This is the shitty part about growing up, you have to learn how to part.

Thats why I've learnt to cherish my bunch of monkeys even more:)

2006-10-30T12:58:00.000+08:00

A MIllionare's First Love

When this airs in Singapore, I am going to watch it again and cry till my eyes pop out. It's such a tearjerker. Right, gotta go for trng now. Goodbye.

2006-10-28T22:28:00.000+08:00

SHALL WE DANCE;

I am trying to convince my Mummy to let my take up Korean classes which she feel is a complete waste of time and money since the only time I actually make my money worth is only when I am on Korea. And she thinks that the time can be better spent on turning my Physics grade from U to A, which as you can see, is totally impossible. Double Yucks. Anyway, who wants to join me? Its $230 for 11 lessons, every Sat 2-4 pm at some location which I forgot to ask.
Cousins outing today. And for those who still believe that we are cousins, here's a confession, we are actually not. Its just Kency and her big mouth. Lots of cam whoring on the escalator today and we bought the perfect very belated birthday present for Christabel. Hope you like it cos I do:)
Trng yesterday was good. Lots of stroke correction :) but it still feels different from before. And I promise I will always take my breakfast before trng. OMG, I totally felt like fainting yest morning. BAD BAD BAD. And Mr Goh is very cute. He calls me a turtle because I like to shorten my neck while rowing and I like to drink reservoir water. Hahaha.
And yesterday, M, Xue and I went back to our old cell after ten thousand years. Haha, our old cell is still the best, isnt it. We are not lost sheeps, we are just sheeps that were plain lazy.
Btw, my second daughter shall be named Holly Grace. Cool right!

2006-10-27T00:18:00.000+08:00

HAPPY HAPPY BIRTHDAY M!

Just came back from town with M and Xue. So sorry for skipping the movie and missing the sleepover, thanks to my oh so inflexible parents. But still, I had a great time with u darlings:) Desserts at some Sun and Moon Jap restaurant at Wheelock was yummy yummy but eating the cakes and all at absurdly late hours means gaining MORE CALORIES. But back to the topic, it was enjoyable talking to you both. Birthday girl, enjoy youreslf today ya!
And now, there will be no more of those emo emo entries. Sch's closed, period.

2006-10-25T19:49:00.000+08:00

You can't feel, you can't see it.

Hugging my knees while sitting under the shelter with my teammates, listening to them sing Christmas songs muffled by the plattering of the raindrops makes me happy:) But I will rather skip the shivering at the cold bus stop part. Trng wasn't really trng since we didn't even train. And Melodie and I witnessed a car crash today. Well, 3 cars colliding together to be exact. And we feeling all sorry and sad for them when a 4th car stopped at the back. Then, this uncle came out with a book and pen to copy the carplate numbers. Haha, damm hilarous. And we laughed till we almost died.

Yes, I know we are complete strangers, no words spoken. I wish I could roar.

2006-10-23T21:18:00.000+08:00

the last dance; your last chance

I' ve decided to name my son Leonardi in future and my daughter Molli Sue. Aren't they like the coolest names on earth. But everyone laughed at me for coming up with retarded names. I don't care, the names are cool and ten years down the road if you will ever see my son, be sure to call him Leo :)

Actually it didn't matter to me, it really didn't. I couldn't be bothered anymore, UNTIL I had that talk with Xue. Xue, you've messed up my mind. Anyway, sch's ending in 2 days time and this stupid game will come to an end. Maybe those didn't mean a thing, maybe they never did. I have never knew you and neither did you. That's why it doesn't mean anything. Luckily, I've guarded my heart well.

2006-10-22T23:13:00.000+08:00

When I fall;

The weekend was spent with my favourite people. I had a great time yesterday with ___ , i couldn't say or else the planned surprise will be ruined. Yes, and I bet you didn't know that photos can be printed so easily from your phone through this PHOTOGENIUS machine. Haha cos I didn't. There is one at Isetan though. Oh Yes, Melly! There is BCBG and Mango sale going on now, I bet you are dying to go right now right right right! Haha quick, make a date with me before you go on your around the world in 20 days trip. Okay, and it was a lovely time spent today with the Royals :D Haha, it has been ages since we last met. Everyone changed abit, didn't we, just a wee bit. We had a lonnng dinner with all that steamboat stuff. Dinner was some crazy laughing session and I felt so tired after eating. And we had Ben and Jerry for desserts. Strawberry Cheesecake, Phish food and Cookie Dough. Okay fine, i broke the NO CHOCOLATE diet. But it was damm yummy. And i feel superly fat now. Catching up with these dearies really warms my heart and it brings back many memories. I have done the craziest things with them. Running after cars, heart-stopping van rides at absurdly high speed, sleepovers, being chased out by grumpy security guards, climbing of trees and whatever you have there, I just love you guys to bits :) Yes, and did you know dear Joanne hunches alot. Even Mr Goh and Mummy says so. Goodness, another bad habit to correct.
Shit, Why is Kwon Sang Woo so damm hot?!

2006-10-20T17:24:00.000+08:00

& love is love only with love;

Byebye EMO blogskin. Today I was damm screwed for WR. I thought it was completed already but alas, life just sucks. I've come to a conclusion that I am like a freaking helpless bird, always just relying on others for help. That's me, a incompetent blur worker. Thank God if you didn't get me as your group member. Luckily there was Quan Rong to help me if not i can just might as well drown myself in tears. My heart seriously can't take it, this- crisis before deadline- shit. Results came and went, and all I can say is God is faithful :) He'll pull you though, even when you're unprepared.